Friday, April 15, 2011

No Fear of Falling

I had been using the walker only outside, since I hadn’t had any falls indoors.  I had one, last week.  It’s a bit of a challenge remembering to use it indoors, now.  It’s a drag having to clean off the wheels.  Carol pointed out that that would be easier if I had a second walker.  At first I thought the extra one would get in the way.  Then, I realized she was right (those magic words).  I had the one my friend Leslie had given me downstairs as a spare.  I moved it up.

Using the walker indoors means I can’t vacuum (unless I take my friend Mary’s advice and get a riding vacuum cleaner).  I feel badly adding that to Carol’s already long days.  She says maybe we can hire Lena to do it.

I also fell outdoors when the walker ran across a crooked patch.  A reminder to slow down.  I think my 18 years of Aikido helps me remember to fall safely, even though that was a long time ago.  It doesn’t scare me.  Just feels stupid.
That reminds me of a conversation Carol had with her mother about the fact that her mother found using her walker embarrassing.  Carol asked, “Is it less embarrassing to fall in front of your friend.?”

My friend Rose also does Interplay.  She gave me a ride there, this week.  At first, I was nervous about doing the improvisational dance movements with the walker.  I have to remember to have one hand on the walker at all times.  The leader Christa pointed out that I could sit and dance.  She put a few chairs down and invited the others to use them for their dances.  She acknowledged that I am a lifetime dancer, and said I never have to stop Interplay.  She also got my permission to push me in the walker in a dance, which was fun.

I noticed that, after I went to the trouble to separate the meat from the dishes I cook, the teenager hasn’t been eating them.  She is on a run of deli food and pizza from the food coop.  Carol says it is all right to put the shrimp back in the rice and beans.  I remembered I know how to make meat loaf, also comfort food.  We can  rotate the beef with turkey, since iron is implicated in my HD.

The present moment makes me laugh.


  1. What a week of adventure, and how beautifully described! Thanks for taking the time to record these experiences, dear Marian.

  2. Your account of dancing with your walker is absolutely inspiring. I admire you from the bottom of my heart, and am resolving not to let my own challenges keep me from life as I tend to do.

  3. Marion, I never cease to be amazed and moved by your journey through HD. Thank you so much for sharing this most personal and intimate experience. Much love.